I don't exactly hate the holidays, since I have a little one.
But, my mom passed away last Christmas night (technically on the 26th).
Just can't help thinking of her at that time. I haven't been able to bring myself to go to the cemetery since some time last January. The marker is now set, but I just don't want to go. It feels like it's a place to go to be sad. Can't do it.
My dad goes to the cemetery EVERYDAY!!! and proceeds to tell me about how many people were buried that day, blah blah blah. It's so depressing.
Hoping I get through this season without too many breakdowns/tears. Sometimes I feel more like I'm crying over the STRESS of figuring out my dad's life than grieving for my mom. Plus, watching him being so sad & depressed.
Maybe that's what it all is - the holidays = STRESS!