I have done extensive studies in religion since I left home. I have found that religion is something that can't be taught; it can only be experienced. God has got me through many hard times including getting through growing up. And what I found as an adult is that it wasn't because I followed any set of doctrines or dogmas. I found that God helped me when I had a good motivation to do well even if I failed sometimes. I found that he judges people's heart, not their actions and what not. Then I saw that was in the Bible. I am comfortable with God now. I have felt the unconditional love that is talked about in the Bible. But my mother is still twisted and set in her ways (her ways are twisted lololol). Since my step dad passed away, she has been seeing a man who is my age. AND he now LIVES with her!! She's Catholic and that is a no no. But somehow, she justifies it!! If I ever even thought about that, I would be harshly judged. She used to yell when she knew my husband (before we were married) would stay over my house or vise versa. I am married now; my second marriage; he's a wonderful man. My first marriage was to a narcissistic catholic man (imagine that). She loved him. Things didn't work out and we divorced over 8 years ago and I have been married to my husband now for 6 years. She still brings up my X in a good way, "I wonder how he's doing?' Even though my husband and I have 2 boys, her grandkids who she never watches, never has the time, etc. Last time she said she wondered how my X was doing, I interrupted and said, "I don't give a F what the H he's doing. He was an A__ to me!" She got that sadistic smile on her face and then no more discussion. She got what she wanted; to get a dig in. The religion issue just intensifies it for me. But she is the way she is regardless.